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Sherli was asking why I haven't been blogging.

It is amazing when I saw that my last blog was late August, exactly 2 months ago.

Some quick updates, I had been very busy with core training 2 weeks followed by catching up on my client D Y R audit and I must say it wasn't easy reviewing the consolidation especially it was my 1st time following up on left open engagement, whats more I have never done consol before.

It was really brain taxing as i stayed late almost everyday till 12 plus (even though I had lied during a recent interview saying that I work till 9pm instead to realise they prefer someone who can suffer hardship).

After that I had to draft the F/S and agree client's figures to my working papers which already took me 1 day and I was trying hard to be efficient bearing in mind that the budget may have burst.

During mid Sept, during the finalising of D Y R, I was told that planning for A R M F was due on the day before my exam, and guess what i rushed both engagements the same time. Broke down once and decided to stand up all over again as I was already blessed with an interview with C R A (unknowing that I will screwed up during the 2ND interview). Very tired.

On last week before exams, I rushed out majority of planning while working really late and D Y R FY 2009 planning and finally signed 1 account of a small engagement I was following up. A job which was passed down by 2 seniors who left consecutively (Yup ultimately unlucky and Well done.. on their departure) the client pushed MIC and myself so hard and called the seniors quiting as a 'Curse ' of the unsigned accounts and better rush it out before I end up leaving in the end.

Hardship didn't end there of course. Exams.. my last paper BSL is REALLY one which had totally disrupted my concentration and made my lose my mind one more time. I got on my feet immediately after a long complaining session with my mum and brother (oh i love them so much). I am so tired.. really. I had to look for a job I told myself.

During my exams break last week, I realised how hard I have worked in the last month I am very glad i managed to finish reading the notes and with help of 2 exam mates Alice and Chermaine, I was able to finish preparing what I could for the exams. Because I knew that this is my last paper and last exam of my entire life (probably), that I must do my best and not Flop.... so I can concentrate on my career.

Right after the exam Jackson threw a mini celebration at Batam for me in completing my paper. However it was rather rush and till now I have not recover from my lack of sleep.

First day of work did not turn out too bad on this Monday, instead the load came on yesterday when S i n g h el l file came out of PIC room and slapped with 3 pages of review points. Well, not too bad. But I am all alone to clear it. As usual file was passed to me directly just like what happened even when I wasn't AIC.

Sometimes I wonder why am I taking all this instead of just passing it to someone else down the line to clear. I am so tired.

Today I got a pat on my back and I felt serene's hand. She was concerned why am I involved with CS... I am really shocked and I thought it must be a mistake. Turn out to be my negligence in failing to book myself even when I have things to do. I am traumatised when FXY told me the senior on same team was gona resign. Sigh.... I needed help, no 1 could help me. Only myself.

I wonder what I want to be in the future. What can i gain from all these sacrifices. 2 years ago, I tried all I could to get an internship to join Big /4 firm just so I could become an auditor right after graduation. I wonder what happened to the passion and excitement. Was it eroded because of peer pressure for resigning, is it the managers or just the nature of the work?

I am so easily manipulated, I don't think I can survive in this anymore. The biggest sacrifice was my sleep and eye bag. Have been juggling studies and work since after poly and these didn't come easy...

So for those who went into N T U and S M U and got the direct entry to Big/4firms must not take things for granted. I did all I could and I am drained. I believe the best thing about me is that I like to self-motivate myself. I can tell you all the above, yet tomorrow morning i forget about everything and start to push further all over again.

Today i saw the tired look on my SM's face and I really pity him. I am already blogging with a Collagen eye mask under my eye. Money cannot bring back youth nd yet I cannot bring myself for a downgrade of salary. Is money really important? Why am I not happy...

I want to relax abit at work, time to work smart and sometimes doing faster doesn't mean you can take a break in between. Breaks will only happen when you take AL or Toil (if there is even any.. now that toil is gone).

Haha, well are you motivated by money or Job scope?

Money

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I have a bad habit.. or rather.. i lack the skill to filter information when i speak to people and it happen that things went out of control. It only took 1 spill and I was badly hit. I should have known shouldn't i? The sense of guilt is unbearable and i could do nothing about it. I believe or rather choose to believe that everything was done with a good intention. But still, I shouldn't be a busy body in the 1st place. I have broke another of my virtue... Never talk about something concerning another person other than yourself. Sometimes, things are better left unexplained cause the more you do, the more complicated things become.

Human beings are not so simple to understand afterall .... i give up. I don't even know what i was i thinking then. I also dropped an hint i wasn't motivated and would soon go, soon the whole world would know... how does it feel? Felt really bad being involved in discussions.

On that note, I see a reason for leaving. How can someone with the character like me end up working here? Am i even suitable in the first place? My character and what i enjoy doing at the beginning.

If its not for money, i wouldn't even be in this line. Without passion for what i am doing will not bring me anywhere. No point lying to yourself. How long will you last? After all life is short.

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Hi guys, today we4 all received our annual increment letter. I was initially delighted to know that i was promoted. As we all know the current makret conditions are not good and people are losing jobs and cutting pay.

We are not sapred. I am very disappointed when i received my incrment letter and to know that i was given a lower increment. :( Super upset. I was hopeful when i first joined DT that i would earn alot by the time i turn senior. I thought all big 4 are the same and all gives same salary. I was so wrong. KP is giving the normal pay.

To sadden the situation, we lost our toil and u also know auditors have to work late. today is 28th which means i am left with 4 days to wack my toil. But charge to where? I have to stop working late already. its so not worth it.

Fuck.

I am slapped with a dilemma now whether to tender or not. Life is so unpredictable... u can die any moment any time. So why work so hard? I made a wrong choice to join DT instead of KP. I would have earned much more.

This is tormanting. Why does the whole world want to make auditor's life difficult. We are professionals for gods sake. Whateva reasons about the credit crunch, economic conditions... why are we taking the blame. ARen't we the revenue generating crew?

Why and why do we need to work so hard for you then?

No more reasons to stay... except for to face the torture and rapid aging.

What do i want in life?

Not this.

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HEY ALL! I am back from Redang. I stayed at Laguna Redang Resort. I must say it is probably the best looking Resort there although we all share the same beach. Hmm, i guess comfort and cleanliness is important too right? Jackson and I was greeted with a welcome drink and every morning we wake up, the crystal clear sea and wide blue sky will be waiting at our door step.

The sea had healed my Blepheritis Infective, the disgusting pus came out of my eye and my eye was healed in no time, if you realise in the photos later, my swollen right eye went back to normal on the 3rd day. haa...

Whats more to complain when everything is within the package we paid for S$335. Yes, I was refering to all the buffet breakfast, lunches and dinners. Wide variety of food and even if you want to pay, everything is reasonable priced.

We took many pictures and ate ALOT of food. Jackson love the Ice Kachang in corn flavour. It was very refreshing but very fattening! But i guess the kachang came at the right weather and time. Gonna share this video with you guys here... the extreme good weather and sound of waves.

Oh, did i mention this is the Mo Mo Cha resort? hee hee... they had a channel looping the movie forever, you can never miss Sammi Cheng and Richie Ren cause you'll probably puke by the 3 time watching it replay since you would have seen the movie more than once before going to Redang.

They are having a promotion now at Laguna Resort, one you shouldn't be missing if you desperately need a cheap get-a-way.

For everything else, i shall let the pictures do the talking.





Enjoy!!